While thinking about how to bridge the gap from the moment of my first blog post in December of 2013, to now, September 1, 2019, it felt impossible! What do I say first?? It felt like the words would never come. Its funny how you can want to say something so badly, but the words just freeze in your throat. So here I am! I’m out here for the world to see! Hi out there! J I’ve been super protective of myself and a bit isolated for the last few years while I figured out how to be ME. I needed to learn who me is in order to put myself out here in order to fulfill my life’s purpose. I believe this is bringing my healing light energy to the world. To reach even just one person a day, to help them in anyway I can, is my purpose here. This journey can get rough and we can beat the crap out of ourselves. We start holding onto to anger or sadness or resentment, which can then build up in our bodies and create a dis – ease within us. I want to help heal this through a combination of sensory therapies. Right now, that’s through my knowledge and passion of massage therapy.
This idea and my mission to heal others didn’t come over night, however. In fact, looking back now I can see the moment in 2011 when this new journey started. It was an incredible strong urge to write again, like you do in a journal. I was in Barbados on vacation and there was a single sheet of paper in the hotel room and a pen. I took it out side into the bright sunny, warm day, and filled up that blank sheet of 8 x 12, front and back! I was on such a roll! Something awoke in me after that, looking at the sea and hearing the water crashing. ‘IT’ was feeling the connection to that gut instinct and the meditative quenching of the inclination that really struck me in that one moment, one defining experience. I can still smell the air and hear waves crashing ashore in the background. I remember that moment like it was yesterday and I couldn’t be more grateful.
From that moment, I kept watching out for THAT feeling from the gut and head. (Which are connected btw, but that’s an entirely different post!! haha) So, that next weekend I took my very first yoga class that opened my heart and changed me even more! I started unintentionally disconnecting, mentally, from my job as an administrative assistant. I kept following this new feeling and that led to reading a book by Lilou Mace, called I Lost My Job and I Liked It. This led me to the movie The Secret, which is about the law of attraction. I remember taking the advise and running with it! A month later, I started massage school and began my journey to what has become my dream job as an entrepreneurial licensed massage therapist in New York City.
This Journey has taken me on a rollercoaster of emotions and life changing situations ranging from ecstatically doing olympic distance triathlons and finding a career that I LOVE to a heartbreaking end to a 12 year relationship and isolation and loneliness to finding out how to be ME again. In regaining my independence I traveled down a winding mixed road of depression and accomplishments, until I am where I am now. Having come full circle since 2011, this embedded feeling of determination, bravery, and complete faith has me flying forward in full force! So when you’re feeling frustrated or lonely out there, always remember, we are n the journey together. AND YES IT’S HARD! So BE VULNERABLE and DARE GREATLY, because it’s your journey, nobody else’s. FOLLOW YOUR GUTS! That is your trusted intuition.
